first post. ever.

As this is my first post, I guess an introduction would be a good place to start?

My name is Bianca, I’m 23 and I’ve never had a blog. I like chocolate, and watching movies, and cuddling. I like to read, talk in the dark, and  I watch ridiculous amounts of HGTV. I also like shoes, tattoos, and sushi. I’m 11 weeks pregnant with my first baby and figured this would be a good way to keep track of my new life, as everything has changed already.

First of all “morning” sickness is a lie. It’s all day and it’s horrible. The meds I got from my doctor make me sleepy so it’s hard to take it during the day when I’m supposed to be at school or work. Crystallized ginger which I’ve heard helps, tastes gross and the ginger chewy candies I’ve tried aren’t really a whole lot better. Not wanting to eat anything is also really frustrating, cause before I was a big fan of food. I’ve lost 5lbs because I can’t find many things I want to eat, and because sometimes I just can’t keep much down. He gets pretty worried cause he knows I should be gaining weight and not losing it but I hear its common for women in the first trimester to lose a couple lbs. Hopefully once I hit that 12 wk mark I’ll wake up and feel no nausea and just a big appetite for everything I can think of. Hopefully.

Besides all the sucky parts of the first trimester, we’re happy. Life growing inside you is not something to be taken lightly. I’ve heard a saying “a woman becomes a mother when she becomes pregnant, and a man becomes a father once he sees his child.” I think its pretty accurate. Since I’ve known there was a “bun in my oven” I’ve altered a lot of things about my life. There’s like an underlying feeling that I always need to protect my baby and that I would do anything for them. I don’t have to know what my baby looks like to know already that I love them unconditionally.

But I can’t even say I don’t know what they look like; I’ve had two ultrasounds already. During the first ultrasound, we actually got to see the heart beating. Even if I wasn’t an emotional pregnant woman I think I would have cried. This past week was my second one and I could actually see the head! And the arms ! And the little legs ! And the baby was moving around so much, just swimming around making it hard for us to hear the little heartbeat but we did, and we recorded it. I’m in love…