graduation – late post

this one is kind of emotional. and not just cause im pregnant..

graduation. the final piece of my undergraduate career. the last page to that chapter of my life. a transition into a new journey. a wake up to the real world and responsibility.

this post is a couple weeks late but i couldn’t go without saying something about such a big accomplishment. i spent a lot of time in college; it took me 6 years to complete my BSEE but no complaints here i finished, i didn’t quit when things got hard and believe me they did. losing my brother two years ago hurt me in the worst way. it changed me into some person i didn’t know, i lost myself and shut a lot of people out of my life for a long time. i didn’t know how to deal and to this day i still haven’t quite figured it out. time doesn’t heal all wounds, you just learn to live with the pain. one day, someone referred to grief as walking down a beach near the waves. your path doesn’t waiver, you just continue to walk the beach and look ahead and sometimes the tide comes up and hits you. the tide is grief and sadness. sometimes the waves don’t touch you but sometimes they do. you have some good days and some bad days. and that’s how it will always be.

this past friday, the drunk driver that killed my brother and his best friend took a guilty plea. i wanted to write a victim impact statement that my mom could read at his sentencing but honestly even two years later i still don’t know how to express it…

two years later i am now expecting a beautiful baby girl that is due on that same brothers birthday. it gave me goosebumps when i first heard my due date. i cried too. a sign? i think so.. one day ill tell my daughter that she helped mommy walk across and shake the deans hand and ill tell her that her uncle loves her and is always watching over her.

Advertisements

2 thoughts on “graduation – late post

  1. Patricia John (Granny) says:

    My darling your comments are very poignant and I commend you for your fortitude and strength. You are one of a kind and I
    can only congratulate you on everything you have done so far. You will go a long way and I know there will always be a big spot in your heart for Uso. He can, even now, be a source of your happiness, as you know he is watching over you.
    Love you.

    Like

  2. Genevieve laidley says:

    I never realized just how strong of a person you are, I am so proud of all that you have accomplished. I know that you will be a great mom and a strong one too. Always remember that even though our love ones leave us but they always watching over us and they love us very much. I love you very much😍😘

    Like

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s