just like i said, here is my mommy update… what have i been doing these past 7 months since i became a mom? what has changed in my life besides i wake up to this beautiful angel face everyday?
well i can finally say after about 6 months i am getting some sleep! i don’t know if its that she’s little older now, or that i full her belly more at night, or that i’ve got her on a schedule or maybe a combination but i am finally getting more than 3-4 hours of sleep at a time. [ the lack of uninterrupted sleep was really starting to affect me] the trade-off though is now that she is sleeping more thru the night she’s also more active during the day and requires more of my free hands so i sometimes get less done during the day and have reverted to doing them after i put her down for the night.
my social life has calmed down a lot. where i was once free to stroll about at my own leisure at any time of day, i now prefer to be home by a certain time. i’ve come to know a group of other mommy friends that i am grateful for because they can relate to my situation and make for great play dates. i have also come to realize who was really a friend; those that still have time for me even though that means hanging out with a baby too. they realize that i don’t love them any less because i love her, and see that i am sometimes too busy to be a friend because im being a mom and that is ok with them.
i’ve learned to prioritize my life better. and have learned to use my time more wisely. before i had her, i felt like sometimes there wasn’t enough time in the day; i was juggling full time school and extracurriculars, part time work, and a pretty active social life in multiple friend groups. now i juggle a full time career job, a full time mommy job, while maintaining a house and staying somewhat social. now i feel like i have much more to do, but i still manage to get it done. i plan on trying to be more social and spend more time with friends. and of course my love muffin will be right there with me.
i love life. though i wish D was working here and not somewhere else, i love life. She gives me a constant reason to smile and laugh even in my darkest hours, and i would do anything to keep a sparkle in her bright eyes and a smile on that drooly-face.