in honor of this upcoming sunday; my first official mother’s day.
this time last year i was caressing my belly lovingly waiting for my princess to arrive. now i am planning her 1st birthday and trying to teach her to walk. so much has transpired in a year, it makes me sit back and examine things so much closer. all the ups and downs, tears and laughs, but what stands out the most is love. an indescrible kind of love that is overwhelming sweet and keeps you smiling well into the night even when everything around you seems to make you frown..
the other day, a friend and i were talking about pregnancy. she asked me what did it feel when the baby kicked. indescribable. how do you describe feeling life moving inside you? how can you put in words what it feels like to know that there is a tiny human growing in your womb, a tiny person that knows what your heart sounds like from the inside? my only regret is not taking enough pregnancy pics and videos! i think i was just in so much awe that i never grabbed my camera in time to capture the moment.
now i have a busy bundle of joy that i can cuddle and laugh with and kiss and teach how to be a lady. night before last she fed me cheerios and gave me kisses without me asking. we clapped our hands when the music played for jake and the neverland pirates and she laughed when i blew the cookie crumbs off her face. she can turn the darkest days into the biggest smiles. last night i watched her take her first step. she looked so surprised that she did it on her own and immediately plopped down on her booty and started crawling around her room once more. A couple of attempts to get her to try and take any more steps but she kept reaching for my hands, for that comfort of knowing that i won’t let her fall. there is nothing i wouldn’t do for that rowdy baby girl and although i already love her more than anything it seems to grow more with each passing day.